Hey Queens n’ Kings,
I am single and I have my good and bad days. Some days I am super happy to not have to deal with anyones crap while other times I think dealing with a bit of it is worth it. I do believe God is keeping me hidden until its time. However, at times I wonder…when is it time? I mean during my season of development, of which I am still going through, I feel like I am ready! Obviously God feels other wise! I truly want what he has for me! I believe and I am claiming that God will give me a fruitful and fulfilling relationship. He will send me someone who will draw me closer to God, not make me feel like he’s cheating on me with any women that walks by, and he will give me someone who loves me unconditionally. Honestly, I don’t want anyone else but who God has sent!
The down side is…I will be honest and just put this out there…I have my moments of desperation. My moments were I feel like he is never coming and I should just settle. Moments where I think:
“I am older so waiting to 2-3 years to date before getting engages puts me at the have a baby NOW age! UGH!!!!! I don’t have time for that! So why even try”
But you know what my friends?!? I would rather do it that way then deal with someone who is a liar. Deal with someone who truly doesn’t have the best intentions for me. Settle for someone who I truly don’t love but I know loves the mess out of me! No! I don’t want that! I want to genuinely love him and love me back…Not me learning to love him! That’s wack!
Desperation leads to vulnerability! If that vulnerability gets in the wrong hands that can be really dangerous! We are only desperate for God! Remember…If you stand for nothing you’ll fall for anything! Stay encouraged and stay strong! Love you guys!
