Hi Queens n’ Kings,
“But By Gods Grace, I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not ineffective.” 1 Corinthians 25:10 HCSB
I took this pic back in 2017. Living in Los Angeles at the time and I wore my hair natural because I wanted to be desired. It seemed as if all the black men desired women with big curly natural hair! 90% of the time I saw a gorgeous black man with a woman with hair like that and she looked exotic. Racially ambiguous. I wanted a man but no one was checking for me…black men especially out there. I guess I wasn’t foreign looking enough. No shade that’s just my experience.
I, for the first time in my life I felt unattractive when I took this pic. My hair isn’t big, thick or long. I was afraid of what people would say about my hair because I wasn’t confident in it. Honestly, I was comparing myself to the other girls I saw often with big curly hair where shrinkage was not a thing for them. I was at the lowest point in my life and I was diligently working on my relationship with God.
But oh how God brings about a change! Also, how turning 30 really flips the IDGAF switch in your head and you just really come into your womanhood. At first I was afraid of 30! Now I embrace it and I am happy as ever to be at this point in my life! Digressing, 30 flips the switch in your head to a whole new side of loving yourself. I came across these pictures THIS week and thought:
“What were you thinking? YOU LOOKED AMAZING!”
“My curls were popping! How did I do my hair like that?….Did I write that down?”
“Why didn’t I post this sooner?”
I really like the pictures and makeup look I created. I even feel back in love with the lens I took the photos and videos with. It took me to take a step back to realize how far I really was. To realize how much he was working, developing, and preparing me to love the woman I am today! To realize how blessed I really was at the time God was transforming me right before my own eyes! Hallelujah!
Now I realize God was keeping me hidden! He was hiding me in his heart until the right one seeks HIM first, in return he will find me as well. He knew that I needed to desire HIM first and become whole before jumping into a relationship broken! I did not realize that back when I took these photos! I was downing myself and felt like something was wrong with me! NO! If you are feeling like that bind that spirit up! It is your hidden season. It was that for me PLUS my season of development! That was a pivotal point in my life and I thank God for showing me that and bringing me out!
Whatever you are going thorough and it seems bleak move closer to God! Know there is a lesson in this and you will see it later. Remain faithful, remain in the word, don’t sell yourself short! YOU ARE ENOUGH! Whatever you are going through God is bigger!
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Below is the tutorial to the makeup look above in the photos!
P R O D U C T S U S E D:
1. MAKE UP FOR EVER Step 1 Skin Equalizer Primer: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTlb
2. NARS Soft Matte Concealer in Carmel and Amande: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTn8
3. Laura Mercier Translucent Powder in Dark: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTnf
4. NARS Velvet Matte Skin Tint SPF 30 in Malaga: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTp2
5. NARS stick Concelar in Cacao: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTrR
6. MAC Spiked Pencil: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTtC
7. NARS Rue Bonaparte: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTtT
8. Fashion Fair Mascara: https://shop.fashionfair.com/Fashion_Fair_Bold_Lash_Mascara_p/6526.htm
9. Becca Champagne Pop: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTuu
10. Mario Badescu Rose Water: http://shopstyle.it/l/MTuN
If no one has told you they love you today…know that I do!
*Besos*
C.Michelle
